Feeling nothing

by Marius Bakke — Thu 17 November 2022

Contrary to popular opinion, love is not something we're born with.

Only the capacity for love.

Love is a skill that needs to be learned.

It took me more than 35 years to realize this.

To recognize the feeling, and more importantly notice when it's gone.

Like today. Not just the feeling of love, but any feeling. No fear, no shame, no joy. Not even depression. Just...nothing.

And that's okay. Healing takes time.

My practice is to seek compassion for myself even on days like these.

Sit with the empty feeling instead of burying myself in work.

Don't "reward" myself for feeling empty by doing menial tasks to keep my mind occupied.

Instead just be.